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Journal Entry: Fri Jan 28, 2011, 3:04 AM
My deepest thanks to NuSunt, augenweide, KizukiTamura and Meugnin for helping me with getting a subscription, I am very thankful. I find it quite motivating to start being more active here - and behind the camera - again, knowing people support me like this. It means a lot.

I'll try to do a decent journal later.


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Feature XIII

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 26, 2010, 5:11 PM
Featuring Narcisse-Shrapnel alone due to what I personally find to be highly appealing and underappreciated work.

Le Fantome dans la Machine 1 by Narcisse-Shrapnel Le Fantome dans la Machine 2 by Narcisse-Shrapnel

Le Fantome dans la Machine 3 by Narcisse-Shrapnel Le Fantome dans la Machine 04 by Narcisse-Shrapnel

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Feature XII

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 8, 2010, 7:18 PM
_disarray_ by SerenityEternity A Portrait, A Sore ,An Epitaph by navidsanati d e r e l i c t by nilgunkara
Distant light caressing by LukeMajewski The ghost of sounds long dead by Greyguardian
I'm not depressed by Jandecameraman

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Feature XI

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 19, 2010, 5:33 PM
  • Mood: Shame

Features X + update

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 1, 2010, 6:15 AM
Been very inactive lately,  more or less entirely because of work. The place I work at is the least creative and inspirational place I've ever seen/been - only the wildest imagination of a young child would keep a person entertained on his own there for an entire day, I would imagine (the poor child would probably cry for mommy after several months, however?). Industrial environments seem to appear more alive when abandoned and decayed than when they're actually working.

Tips on keeping sane would be appreciated. I can't find a friend like "Wilson" in the movie Castaway, so that's not an option.

I plan to upload some photos taken through the past few months or so, as I very rarely get the time to put my heart into new pieces right now. Which is quite depressing.

I'd like to give a thanks to PsycheAnamnesis, who very unexpectedly gave me a subscription some time ago. It is very much appreciated and I plan to make the most of it, starting with this journal. Again, thank you!

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Into the Void IV by AForAdultery

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Features IX

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 6, 2010, 4:15 PM
  • Mood: Speechless
  • Listening to: Sludge, drone, whatever.

Features VIII

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 8, 2010, 7:37 AM

adieu les armes by Rimka Pauline 5 by NerySoul :thumb163196404:


Mature Content

awake from daydream by asruldwi

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Features VII

Journal Entry: Mon May 17, 2010, 2:38 PM
Agave Lines by joannakossak 01 by deepinswim :thumb136764202:

the green monster by NuclearSeasons

Mature Content

_ by YnotPhotography

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Features VI

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 30, 2010, 6:31 PM
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to:
  • Drinking: no.

Features V

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 20, 2010, 3:58 AM


:thumb159796482: The Story by papershoesnebula Beneath The Veil by Kaeldra-1

up the downstair by thicktheo Grisha 3 by jivotnoe :thumb106903637:

Shorts by DeeDeePhoto No 10 by Styush :thumb159618818:




Thanks to Phantagiro and Night-Beast for helping me out with some journal-issues.

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Features IV + thanks (updated)

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 12, 2010, 3:13 AM
Once more I need to send out my deepest gratitude, this time to evigt-din for the extremely generous act of extending my subscription, just as my previous one was about to run out. Please, show her some gratitude and love - for generous acts such as this some thanks is the least one deserves. Also, evigt-din, I'd happily feature some of your work if you upload some :)

My subscription is coming to an end, so I'm doing this final feature. Also, I'd like to further extend my thanks to seya88 for suggesting one of my pieces for a DD - it has meant a lot to me and it is very much appreciated. Thanks to Shalora for choosing it, too. And, of course, thanks to all the people who have commented and added favorites in my gallery...

So, final features, for now - after my subscription runs out I wont update my journal unless there's something extremely important or I become able to make a new feature</sub>.

Mature Content

don't let me keep you by Enaston
gone with the passion by thundereq
:thumb142126009: I wrote these words by lesmick

Mature Content

disappear by Enaston

In your world by wchild :thumb141337844:
nothing... by Kidy-kido

colours of my world by seya88 shadows fall by ka-sau touching the dust of me by Valioza
Fading memory by Greyguardian Weightless by PiaG
Woodlamp by Loiissipoff

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Features III

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 22, 2010, 4:32 AM
:thumb140188048: 4837 by spartakustum
- No Title 20 - by KARRR :thumb154526754:

Mature Content

Grit IV, ver. 2:  Glassworks by revblank


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  • Reading: I should.
  • Watching: snow. Lots of it.
  • Drinking: causes trouble.

Tell me your favorites II

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 9, 2010, 6:04 AM
  • Mood: Confused
  • Listening to: piano stuff.
  • Drinking: causes trouble.
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Been ill, busy and a bit unmotivated, so my activity on here as been brief and rare, for a week or two. 2,482 deviations (groups to blame!) to go through. Or not. (: Annoying, because it's very impractical to track down those of the people I watch and care about personally, to see what's new and to comment/favorite.
Also, I decided to remove a lot of old replies and activity messages, some of which I hadn't answered to in more than 2 months - I am sorry! If there's something in particular that bugs you, remind me and I'll answer.

I've done a similar journal to this before, long ago. Time for a new one.

#1: I'm looking for artists/galleries on deviantart which you find inspiring or easy to "sink into". The smaller the chance is that I've seen their gallery before, the better..! Especially photography and traditional art (painting) is of interest. Abstract, surreal, conceptual and "personal" art would be great. Things that make you think and feel. Galleries with their own unique style. Give me some tips, I'd appreciate it!

#2: Also, any recommendations for movies you don't think makes any sense or requires analysis to comprehend?

#3: And movies that are visually stunning (either cinematography or thematically)?

#4: Lastly, thought-provoking books that taught you something valuable about life, society and human behavior?

Should I get any replies, I'll add little lists of suggestions in this journal. Thanks in advance!

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Features II

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 22, 2010, 6:29 PM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Nahvalr
  • Watching: &quot;The Road&quot;
  • Playing: Life
  • Drinking: No.
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:thumb151340468: the day when i have to leave by asruldwi
In too deep by SerenityEternity
Solitude by NachoRomero Welcome to Wales by gee231205
:thumb148790541: A Part of the Desert I by VexingArt
Sweet 14 by tste Scarf by FightingForNothing
the void by HenriqueFrazao Yesterday they were here by wchild

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New Year

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 30, 2009, 1:01 PM
  • Mood: Thanks
  • Watching: time fly.
  • Drinking: No.
2009 - 2010

I would just like to thank my friends and watchers for the year that has been. I've had to deal with some of the greatest ups and worst downs during 2009. I've felt both better than ever, and utterly destroyed - in some ways worse than ever. A year of emotional contrasts? It's also been a year during which I have uploaded a pretty large amount of art/photography, so I'd like to extend my thanks to pretty much everyone who has supported, commented or in any way interacted with me/my uploads during this time.

It is, however, in particular my friends that I feel very grateful to - both on dA and the ones in "real life". I don't like to mention names, but you know who you are. If in doubt, consider yourself one of them... I shall try to get my features done soon enough (I've mentioned I'd do them for the end of the year, but, they're delayed - and for that I am sorry). Currently very far behind in comments and galleries, I have a lot of catching up to do. I hope to see a lot more inspiring and personal art in the future too, of course.

So, a somewhat early "Happy new year!" to anyone and everyone, and congratulations to myself, as I'm turning 21 on new years eve.

Some special (alphabetical) thanks:

My little brother. You're not reading this - but thank you for being you.

My real-life friends, not present on dA. Thank you for being there, being you. Hopefully, you know who you are.

Certain relatives, not present on dA. Thank you.

:bulletred: Thank you, cretena, for your friendship and support. For the large exchange of words, thoughts etc - throughout the entire year (and more!). I'm grateful.

:bulletred: Thank you to Metallophilic, for your friendship and for the subscription. Thank you, very much!

:bulletred: Thank you, subtlewhisper for volunteering as a model, for me who at the time of introduction was just a random stranger! You've been a big help, and I still enjoy our shoots - and I'm glad I've gotten to know you. Thank you!

:bulletred: Thank you, the-a-line. What might be considered a small thing to many people, meant very much for me. I'd like to thank you for what made a difference, and for lending a helping hand and ear. I truly appreciate it. Let me know if there's anything I can do to make it up to you.

:bulletred: Thank you, tste for your real-life friendship and support. It means a lot to me, and I am honored to have you as a friend!

Thank you, for your art, support and words. It has been a pleasure to share a fraction of the year on dA following you.

Thank you for the shared photoshoots throughout the year, cousin!

Thank you for your friendship outside of dA, it's always a pleasure talking to you.

Thank you for support. Although our art has taken different directions, it's good to still have you around. I'm sorry for not always being equally supportive back, I hope to get better.

Thank you for the real-life acquaintance and support!

Thank you for your frequent commenting and support.

Thank you for the many and frequent comments - I rarely know how to thank you properly. Please know that I appreciate it, really.

I wish you the best of luck, with everything!

Thank you for the exchange of comments and general support.

Many thanks for your support and rather frequent featuring of my work, I am grateful and honored. Thank you!

Thank you for your support and exchange of comments throughout all this time. I hope you are doing well!

Thank you for your frequent commenting and support.

Thank you for your frequent commenting and support.

Many thanks for your support and beginning of a friendship - I'm really looking forward to getting to know you better in 2010!!

Thank you for the many random conversations here on dA, it's been a lot of fun! I appreciate it, and your support. Tack!

Thank you so very much for the exchange of comments, favorites and support throughout all this time, my friend! It's been a pleasure! I'm looking forward to make 2010 at least as great as 2009, and to see a lot of new photography from you! Merci!

Thank you, for your art and support!

Many thanks for the commenting, support and general kindness! Thank you.

Thank you, for your real-life support.

Thank you:
Yesterweek  bippla CoolleKotten EvePhotos  gonalmu
kharas Loiissipoff neexa Tossa VonBrrr
wchild WerBinIch Zaterion

The very honorable "Fuck y*u! of the year" goes to:
My "father".

Things to do in 2010:

1: ...
2: Live.
3: Be happy.
4: If economy allows so; make a short film.

Next up, features. Once more, thank you - all.

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Journal Entry: Wed Nov 18, 2009, 4:07 PM
Seizing the moment and throwing in some thanks and features, while a "pretty journal" is still possible.

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And the smiles by PiaG smileOFsphinx by Valioza
Noise - Becoming Cat by tste Youth by kharas
Black romance three by thecapricorn Mood Swing by Radicalbison

Although I do appreciate the watchers I have who regularly favorite some of my pictures, I'd also like to thank the following people for things such as your support (past or present), your interesting/frequent comments (past or present, once more), real-life friendship - or simply for your art. Alphabetical order.

aEstHeticMourn Yesterweek bippla Circle-DA CoolleKotten C-vitamin Cosyyy cretena danzoradpants EvePhotos gee231205 GeneralZadrek gonalmu JustinChee kharas Loiissipoff Metallophilic neexa Nemolumos PiaG pinklilly000 privatedanser Radicalbison roxasandaxellover SerenityEternity ShiroiYoru subtlewhisper the-a-line thecapricorn Tossa tste Valioza VonBrrr wchild WerBinIch Yollanda Zaterion madame-defiant

Thank you.
(I'm certain I've missed someone - I apologize in advance...)

Also, thanks to LadyRandess for watching me since October, 2006 - and still doing so. I'm impressed hah!

Note, I plan/hope to do a more personal journal with more "in-depth thanks" and notes towards the end of the year.

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  • Reading: too little...
  • Watching: Antichrist, shortly.
  • Eating: throatburn.
  • Drinking: No.


Journal Entry: Fri Oct 16, 2009, 6:01 PM
(this journal is entirely non-related to art)

I am/was tempted to make this a very personal journal entry, but nay. Just have to write anything, to get rid of the less than cheerful previous one.

I believe I've managed to eradicate the destructive puzzle I've been laying in my mind for months now, and feel as if I'm about to finally move on. It's an immense feeling of relief. Rejoice. Can't say "I've never felt better" - far from it, but I feel very good in comparison to what has previously been. I needed this.

Note to self: Keep your spirits high!
Is there anyone I frequently (or not) "comment with" here that is using Facebook or I'd love to add some new people.


The Nobodies by Zemni

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  • Listening to: Sigur R&oacute;s
  • Drinking: No.
What triggers your (photographic) imagination & inspiration - your creativity? Please share.

I took the first photography-walk on my own today for the first time in what feels like an eternity. Took some nature shots, felt good about it, got home and felt displeased by the results after reviewing them on the computer. Not a complete waste of time considering I enjoyed being out there, but I often consider the final shots the main reward.

Sort of feels like I need to have a plan or idea behind things now, which is not good when you're lacking "spark". I'd love to see a photography-project-site (!?) with a list of things to try yourself. Does anyone know of any sites like that?

I'm almost considering taking on one of those 100-themes lists, just to have something to turn to when lacking ideas.

Also, depressing music anyone?
  • Mood: Shitty
  • Listening to: Lifelover, the album &quot;Konkurs&quot;
  • Drinking: No.
I once read a photo article somewhere saying you should save the money you spend on going to nice places to photograph, and spend them on decent equipment and use it all in your backyard instead (because "things to photograph are everywhere"?). Or maybe it was the other way around somehow... In any case, I'm leaning towards the "going to nice places" side currently, and not just literally/"physically". I want to get away, but my situation doesn't allow me to do so just like that.


If anyone has an empty cardboard box originally intended for freighting bananas across the border or overseas, I'd be happy to take the bananas place..


Mature Content

don't let me keep you by Enaston

Mature Content

don't let me keep you by Enaston

Mature Content

don't let me keep you by Enaston
  • Mood: Questionable
  • Reading: too little...
  • Drinking: No.

Random blah-blah ahead!

I feel in need of acquiring more "soul" in my photography - more than a dead fox, random animals and plants seem to be able to squeeze out (unless I'm doing it wrong). Although nice subjects visually, they feel very empty to me. There are times I want to erase 80% of my gallery because I don't feel any connection to a lot of it (other than taking the picture).

Not intending to sound like a snob or anything, but according to Wikipedia (the not always very correct source of almighty knowledge, I know);

"Art is the process or product of deliberately arranging elements in a way that appeals to the senses or emotions"

The senses or emotions. Senses - sure, got some stuff that might be nice to look at. Emotions? Not so much. May cause an "aaaah, lovely color" feeling every once in a while, but no real "feelings", if that makes sense.

I'm aware that this journal may not reach out to that many people, but has anyone else ever felt this way? Not the best choice of words, but it's as if "what I do is inadequate", or "out of style". A photographic puberty...(!?)

Anyway, the final note-to-self is probably to start identifying (or transforming) whatever artistic and/or visual style or "soul" I may eventually have - and want. Lots of work, I'm sure. Hopefully my gallery shall begin to change from now on, and I think a clean-up will occur in the near future as well.

End of wordbarrage.
  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: Post-rock.
  • Drinking: No.